One Day, I Will Honestly Do This

In other words, I will actually refocus this blog. The problem is that my wife has now taken a full-time job, with hours of 6pm-2:30 a.m. - which means Daddy is working full-time, getting off work, going to pick up little man from his grandparents’ house, going home, cooking supper, helping with homework, making him take a shower or bath, reading book, getting him ready for bed and then finally collapsing into his own bed.

And…repeat.

So I have no time other than work, which I sadly use to actually work. However her job is only a temporary one so until I can get more than 30-45 seconds breathing time (meaning probably not until next month) I will have to put this blog change on hold.

That will probably give me more time to refocus on it; plus I’m still having problems focusing on just one thing at a time. I always have so many ideas or projects that I end up not finishing any of them, and that has plagued me my whole life. I need to finish one thing, and as a result of that I think everything will fall into line. Hopefully.

I normally get a small amount of time after he goes to sleep to do stuff, so I will try and fit this into there. Last night, for example, I was going to work on it. I sat down on the couch and started working on a few things on the laptop and suddenly found myself waking up on the couch…three hours later!

Aha! I have found it.

And what I mean by that is “I've found the means to change what this horrible template looks like and will be doing so later tonight."

With that comes the refocus I’ve been burbling about, or at least provides the (currently missing) foundation for it.


Oh, and thanks for the comments really - it means a lot. I know there’s not much point in my ramblings yet, but as I go along I’ll be talking about writing and other creative projects I have as well as giving excerpts, and hopefully doing funny things that people will laugh at and enjoy, and I’d love to have your input as to what’s working and what isn’t, and what you think of the redesign.

Oh, and this isn’t the redesign; it is just the result of me fooling around with the settings.

And yes, I took the picture. :)

Bits and Bobs

Some random bits of flotsam and jetsam floating about:


1. Is there an easy way - in fact, any way to make your own blog template on this thing, or put a photo up or anything? I like the ease of use, but the design is rather…lacking, to be kind. I will dig deeper; perhaps I have just not paid attention or read what I was supposed to.

2. I forget #2. I just had it a minute ago, but…oh yes! I am getting better at the guitar. One day I hope to be at least partly as good as my brother. I feel I've turned a corner though and that's saying something with as little time as I get to practice. I really need to make time for guitar and writing too. I think if I would work harder at both than something would come out of it that could change my life. Sounds corny, but why not try it? I mean…if I can take time to write in a blog then I should be able to write more on my novel(s) and short stories I’ve had for ages, right?

3. I feel like I also should go back to school but I don’t really want to write papers on things that I don’t care about and will probably never remember anyway. I do want a degree but I no longer know if I have the patience to get one. I feel ashamed of not having one, but until we get some more income at my house, it’s pretty much a dead issue.

4. If anyone, anyone at all is out there reading this, please feel free to leave a comment. If you like.

Still still refocusing.

Ah well. I am trying.

At least baseball has started again and that brings with it, for me and thousands of others the promise of springtime and renewal. Many claim that baseball is boring or takes too long but for me it's the leisurely pace that brings a sense of peace and calm. To me, everything in my life, including and especially work, is always rush rush rush. It is therefore a wonderful thing to sit in a place that smells of hotdogs and peanuts and cotton candy and fresh-cut grass in the warm sun and just soak it all in. To watch the strategy of a well-placed defense or the pure elation of a crushed home run is so much fun that just for a little bit I can forget about what bills are due or whether or not I got the files I was working on right or if I need to change the car's oil.

That I can also enjoy it with my son is an added bonus; I want him to always remember spending time with his Dad and all the fun times we had when he was a kid. To me that is why I love baseball.

Which is not, to say, quite what I was intending on posting; I am trying to develop a sense of place and a rhythm for this blog, but so far it eludes me. I suppose for the time being I will continue to ruminate on whatever strikes my fancy, and see what comes of that.


Or perhaps, as I just told a friend of mine, I just need a really good burger.

Still refocusing.

Yes, I know. It’s still the same and everything. I’m working on it. It’s Spring Break this week for us and Little Man is more important than this thing…

More soon though I promise.